The Tunnel


This is my mini-blog of random updates that aren't long enough or suited for the main blog.

Tuesday June 28, 2022
I am eating cupcakes and listening to Morrissey's The More You Ignore Me, The Closer I Get. I loved the album Vauxhaul and I so much in the 90s. I watched two movies in the last week, one was this twisted movie filmed in 1973 in Athens called Poor Pretty Eddie - it was very much insane, but I did enjoy the Georgia scenery from the year I was born. The other movie I watched was Men, which came out this year. I had high hopes for it, but it was absurd and the ending was laughable - easily the worst movie I have seen in a very long time.
Also it has been so nice to feel like I have disappeared by not being on Facebook since some time in May. I don't know how people tolerate that service everyday.

Thursday June 16, 2022

Rachel Ward in Against All Odds

I have been plenty quiet about what is in my next autobiographical novel and there are plenty of reasons for that. One reason is that I want it to be as shocking as Dweller On The Boundary. Much of the next novel remains set in Paulding County, but much sunnier locales are front and center.

I've been working on this novel for a year and a half and parts of it have been written while staying in Fort Lauderdale. Home away from home is a place that influences and inspires me, more so this time around.

Against All Odds - I loved the movie and song since I was a kid in the 80s and it was relevant to my last novel and is again in the next one too, but in a different way. 

Wednesday June 15, 2022

One aspect I love about writing is learning about obscure to me topics. Now I’m learning about the Mistral wind and shark fishing. 

Sunday June 12, 2022

Photo courtesy the real person behind the character of Tavin. Taken in Columbus, Ga.

4 AM and thinking of the conversations with some people from the past that I'd like to have and may never. Perhaps that is what writing is about for me, having conversations with them. I wish social media worked for me in this regard, but we are incompatible.
Miss You Like Crazy, Natalie Cole - I wish I had included the story attached to this song from Florida in Dweller On The Boundary.

Thursday June 9, 2022

Fort Lauderdale. Photo by me.

I am in fortress mode for awhile, I'm too focused on writing, which is going well, to commit to social engagements. I hope my readers in the northern hemisphere are having a great summer and running on the beach with "Kennedy flair" as it goes in Summerfling by k.d. lang.

Wednesday June 8, 2022
The risks I  am taking in the next novel will be worth it, is what I tell myself after a good morning of writing. Time to catch the sunrise and smell the morning after the rain.

Tuesday June 7, 2022
Via The New Yorker, How the Internet Turned Us Into Content Machines.

Saturday June 4, 2022
The hard parts are always written before sunrise. Four a.m. to six at my desk and I'm back from thirty years in the past.

Constant Craving was so good in 1992, k.d. lang. I laugh and smell incense in my old room whenever I listen to this song.

Wednesday June 1, 2022
It is incredible how much more productive my writing has  been without the distractions and horseshit of social media over the past week and a half. Why does it exist? Related: via The Critic.

Photo by me. June 2022.
One of the new roses in the rear garden of the house has its first blooms.
As Voltaire said, "cultivate your own garden."

Tuesday May 31, 2022
At least I am not the only one that sees the problems with text messages and instant messages. Via Wired.

Monday May 30, 2022
I reactivated The Tunnel after an absence of a year since I am not using Facebook. I don't think people realize how busy I am day and night. It's no wonder I weigh as little as I do.

Saturday May 22, 2021
The 90s were fun and the music was the best. Matthew Sweet's Sick Of Myself rocks.

Saturday December 12, 2020
I see I have not written one of these in over a year. Work is coming along nicely on the short story collection. I am pleased and eager for people to read them. Sitting here at my big wooden desk this gray December morning.

Wednesday August 21, 2019
I noticed today that all of the high school yearbooks from when I was in school have been uploaded to Scary stuff. I had never seen my senior year book since I did not purchase one. It was mildly heartbreaking looking through it; such bad memories buried in it. I almost wish that I had not looked at it. Third Eye Blind's Jumper fits that time.

Thursday April 11, 2019
It was nice tonight to sit out and watch the crescent moon weave in and out of out the clouds on this warm night. Moonlight Sonata.

Friday March 29, 2019
A splendid and satisfying day. I managed 4,500 words today. Another chapter complete I believe. It's warm today 70 and it is spring. Supertramp's Take The Long Way Home is my song today.

Thursday March 28, 2019
I wrote over 5,600 words for the book today. I hope they were words in meaningful sentences. Emotionally drained after that marathon writing session. I had to get those words out to take the load off my mind about that chapter.
Morrissey's going to relax me with The More You Ignore Me, The Closer I Get while I shop hotels.

Thursday March 21,2019
I dislike the smell of old newspapers. Yuck!

Saturday March 16, 2019
This piece in Harper's is wonderful reading.

Wednesday March 13, 2019
It took me eight years to track down what happened to the person behind Oliver. so I have to keep trying to find this other person. I have opened the file I had of him in my mind and now I need to complete it.

Friday March 08, 2019
I've regained an interest in Swatch that I haven't had since 1990.

Monday March 04, 2019
I had thought it time to put the gloves and scarves away for the season, but the winter cold has returned.

Saturday February 23, 2019
This fog we've had for the last straight five days would be great for filming a horror movie.

Thursday February 21st, 2019
Research via property records has been enlightening.

Wednesday February 20th, 2019
The lightning is so intense tonight. I cannot remember lightning like this ever in February.

Tuesday February 19th, 2019
It is currently 37 degrees this afternoon with thunderstorms booming overhead. You don't see that combination often. Odd weather.

Saturday 06/23/2018:
I've been so busy planning the trip of a lifetime the past couple of weeks. I've never done a trip quite like this and so it is taking so much planning. Thankfully I have plenty of time as I don't leave for this trip until late July. It's exciting.
I've been listening to Max Richter's Blue Notebooks often.

Monday 05/28/2018:
Watching the rain from the storm named Alberto has been relaxing. I hope it is a wet summer.

Thursday 05/17/2018:
Standing outside tonight enjoying the rain was so nice.

Monday 05/07/2018:
It's official I love James Bay. Pink Lemonade is hot.

Saturday 05/05/2018:
I woke up at 5:30 this morning with plans to write and my mind was buzzing with thoughts. After breakfast and a shower I sat down to write and then I couldn't think/focus. I hate when this happens. It will come or it won't. Song for the day.

Monday 04/30/2018:
This is still one of the sweetest songs ever recorded. The good thing about writing a book mostly set in the 1980s is rediscovering all this great music.

Wednesday 04/25/2018:
My head has spent so much time in the 1980s with this book that I feel like I've lost touch with 2018, but I have been in a groove over the last week and I'm so happy with what I am writing. Go 1980s!

Tuesday 04/24/2018:
Work is going extremely well on the book. I remember "Peter", 1985, the cold, the heat and everything else. White Socks/Computer Blue is a fun chapter.

Wednesday 04/18/2018:
It has been a productive week editing and rewriting chapters in my book. I am determined to see this through despite the dark tunnels it takes me down.
The best song Kenny Loggins ever recorded is, Meet Me Halfway. I like to think of it when I look at the stars and dream.

Wednesday 04/11/2018:
I am thinking about my book tonight. I was thinking of rewrites that I might make and then I became fixated on the Space Shuttle Challenger explosion in 1986 and my memories associated with that day. I can remember that day perfectly thirty-two years later. My mind is working hard tonight.

Monday 04/09/2018:
I had heard this song a million times on the radio but then yesterday I listened to it for the first time. James

Tuesday 02/27/2018:
This was one of the top songs of 1981 and I had completely forgotten about it until tonight; I was eight years old when it came out. I love this song. Gino Vannelli, Living Inside Myself

Saturday 02/24/2018:
Peter Hujar's photography was wonderful. I had seen the Candy Darling photo plenty of times before, but never knew who shot it. Link 1, Link 2  I wish I could see the exhibition in person but I have no plans to visit NYC before the show closes in May.

Thursday 02/15/2018:
It seems spring has come early again. It was 68F (20C) this afternoon. I spotted a guy on a sidewalk today wearing only shorts and a tank top. This is too early for shorts and I'm not ready to give up my scarves and jackets just yet.

Tuesday 02/06/2018:
I'm remembering my trip hop period tonight. Many good times and late nights were had listening to 2Wicky by Hooverphonic back in the day. This song is still fine. I wish trip hop was still around. Actually, hmm maybe trip hop still lives.

Monday 02/05/2018:
I need to hike soon. I can feel the craving building inside me to hit a new trail and see new places. Maybe this Saturday if the weather is okay. A song for the trails.

Saturday 02/03/2018:
Song For You by Alexi Murdoch is a sweet song for a Saturday. There's too much political strife in the world so I'm looking at the sweet aspects of life today. I was reading the poetry of Walt Whitman this morning, I hadn't read any of his work in many years and that's a shame. No serious thinking for me today.

Friday 01/26/2018:
My Friday morning sunrise. Winter skies are the prettiest.
Roads is still one of the best songs ever recorded and I'll never change my mind on that. I just lean back, close my eyes and listen to Beth Gibbons break hearts.
The PNYC live version. The studio version. Such sweet, sweet sorrow. When the strings come in at the midway part of the song they just soar...

Tuesday 01/23/2018:
Ok I may be several years late but I'd always wanted to check out The Strokes but never got around to listening to them. Now I'm digging The Strokes. They remind me of Television.

Friday 11/10/2017:
I've been largely quiet lately on my blog and I have my reasons.
I so love this soundtrack from the movie Goodbye Lenin. I've yet to see the movie, but I have been enjoying the soundtrack for months now.

Sunday 10/29/2017:
Today was a marvelous day out walking in the cold and the wind - a temperature of 39F (4C) with a much colder windchill this afternoon. The leaves are getting prettier by the day on the South Peachtree Creek Trail.

Saturday 10/28/2017:
Watching the first episode of Stranger Things Season 2 and enjoying knowing that it is filmed here in metro Atlanta. I appreciate seeing some of the natural beauty of the area on the show and knowing some of it is filmed only a few minutes from where I live.

Monday 10/23/2017:
Digging through my old CD collection this evening and I came across this song and I had completely forgotten how wonderful it is.

Thursday 10/12/2017:
In addition to it being gay pride this weekend there's a cool event I am going to attend in Marietta. It is a chalk art event that looks really cool. I've never had the opportunity to go in years past because I always forget, but not this year.

Friday 10/06/2017:
Under a Tropical Storm Watch here in Atlanta now. Seems the bad weather will start on Sunday. I might can get in a hike tomorrow. This will be the third tropical system this year for us here in the city.

Wednesday 10/04/2017:
It appears we may have another hurricane come through Atlanta early next week. This will be the third time this year we have had a tropical system impact us.

Sunday 10/01/2017:
Such a busy weekend. Saturday went to SCADfash for the new Guo Pei exhibition then over to Fernbank Museum for the new gladiator exhibition followed by a walk in the Fernbank Forest. Sunday was four miles walking from Mason Mill Park to Medlock Park and back instead of the usual walk at Grant Park. Oh and I watched another sad Japanese movie last night, The Long Excuse. I need to stop watching so many Japanese movies.

Wednesday 9/27/2017:
I ordered tickets today for a lecture by artist/photographer Marilyn Minter in October at the Woodruff Arts Center. The lecture is part of a series presented by the photography festival, Atlanta Celebrates Photography. I can't believe September is almost over already.

Friday 9/22/2017:
Oh dear. I am alive.

Thursday 9/21/2017:
I am sitting here constructing a custom map in Google and listening to Philip Glass when out of nowhere I hear the rain falling. It is a nice surprise thunderstorm at night on the last night of astronomical summer. It's the only spot in the city that is raining at the moment.

Wednesday 9/20/2017:
Tomorrow is the last day of astronomical summer. When summer is over I'm typically happy about that because I am tired of the heat and humidity after several months of it.
This song for whatever reason sounds like summer to me, it makes me think of dark green forests and getting lost. Bye summer.

Thursday 9/14/2017:
Yeah this song, Hey Kind Friend.

Wednesday 9/13/2017:
This gay movie, Call Me By Your Name, is getting a lot of buzz in films circles. Some are saying even Oscar worthy. I've not see it yet. It was directed by Luca Guadagnino and it looks pretty, which his films are. I Am Love, another film of his was also pretty; it starred the gorgeous Tilda Swinton. I look forward to seeing this new movie. Here is the trailer for Call Me By Your Name.

Tuesday 9/12/2017:
The electricity went out last night from the hurricane. The cell service died this morning. By afternoon the electricity and cell service was restored. The internet service was down too. Thankfully all have returned to service now. For me Hurricane Irma was a fun storm to track and experience but for many others it was a tragedy and fatal. I feel bad for the people that lost everything because of this storm. The weather and nature for all their beauty can also be the cause of great suffering and misery and that shouldn't be forgotten.

Monday 9/11/2017:
I made it through Hurricane Irma today as it hit Atlanta. Strong wind and good sideways rain was fun to observe and get out in. Lots of power outages around the city, but for now I have power. The storm is dying down here it seems.

Sunday 9/10/2017:

(Visible satellite imagery focused over North Georgia.)
These are the first clouds to arrive in Atlanta from Hurricane Irma. These are the exhaust clouds from the northern side of the storm. The storm is still a very long ways away, off the coast of far southwest Florida. The clouds arrived just before noon today.

Saturday 9/09/2017:
The hype and worry over Hurricane Irma in Atlanta and what she will bring to us early next week is ridiculous. It will rain and there will be wind. It will not be this apocalyptic scene and chaos that many people seem to be fearing and predicting. I shake my head at the foolishness. I've been through several tropical systems in Atlanta and this will just be another to add to the list. 

Sunday 9/03/2017:
If definitely feels like fall this morning especially with the low humidity it feels crisp outside. It is currently 59F (15C) in my neighborhood. It is beautiful weather for the long holiday weekend.

Thursday 8/31/2017:
We are finally getting some rain here in Atlanta from the remains of Hurricane Harvey. The rain started yesterday and it is still raining today. We needed the rain as August has mostly been a dry month here. I'm glad to see the rain again.

Saturday 7/22/2017:
Today on average is the hottest day of the year in Atlanta. It feels like it today with temperatures in the low 90s and high humidity. The heat index is around 100 degrees. Today is the peak of summer and it is all down hill from here. I like summer, but I love fall so I will anxiously be waiting for it in a couple of months.

Monday 7/17/2017:
 The thunder sounded like the classic thunder from a movie and it seemed the sky was ripped open to loud cracks. The wind gusted and the rain poured again this evening. It had been a sunny and hot day until this evening but once again the rains came. I enjoyed it, but it seems like I live in a tropical location this year with the constant downpours that seem to be so regular. A wet summer this has been.

Friday 6/30/17:
Whoa I haven't written one of these in a long time I see! I haven't been on Facebook since the middle of May and won't be back on there until September as I take my summer break from it. That break kinda had me stopping all these status update type things including here.
Anyway, I have beachy thoughts on my mind. Ever seen the movie Against All Odds? I like that movie even though it isn't a great film by any means. I mostly like the setting where it was filmed, also Jeff Bridges sure was pretty in the early to mid 1980s. The title song from the movie is good too. I watch the video when I need a little exotic in my life.

Sunday 4/16/17:
It is time for the annual Spring purge of clothes for donation to charity. It will be four bags.
For the last year I have been donating to Lost N Found Youth which is a charity for homeless LGBTQ youth here in Atlanta which is a marvelous place to help. I had been donating clothes to other charities, but for me this one is something I can more closely relate.
Today someone posted a thought in an unrelated thread over at Democratic Underground about charity and I thought it was very true, "money is agnostic, it allows good people to be better and bad people to be worse."

Sunday 4/10/2017:
Those damn sentimental Japanese movies always get me. I watched If Cats Disappeared From The World tonight and oh I fell for it.

Wednesday 4/05/2017:
I cannot wait for it to be released.

Tuesday 4/04/2017:
A little after nine at night and I'm sitting here with my coffee. Just thinking.

Thursday 3/30/2017:
Today was the first day of wearing shorts for the season. It was so nice to be able to go out and walk in the warm humid weather this evening. It was like an early summer preview.

Wednesday 3/29/2017:

In 1987 I such a secret crush on him. He was so damn beautiful and he could sing. His music was very different compared to what most pop music was doing at that time. I wish he had been more successful.

Saturday 3/25/2017:
Feeling this song today.
Maybe it is the weather, but I feel great today.

Tuesday 3/21/2017:
Over the past few months I've been on a serious spell of listening to Natalie Merchant and her earlier band 10,000 Maniacs. I had forgotten how much her/their music meant to me back in the late 80s and into the 90s. I need to write more in depth about my love for them.
Oh...What's The Matter Here? That point Natalie goes off at 2:55 is one of my favorite moments in a song ever.

Saturday 3/18/2017:
The spring birds are singing and the rain is falling on this Saturday morning. The perfect song for the morning coffee on a day where I don't thankfully have a damn thing planned.

Wednesday 3/15/2017:
I see that Little Tybee is playing the Atlanta Jazz Festival in Piedmont Park this May. I hope I get to see them. I particularly like this song and this one and this one too hahahaha.
Macy Gray will be performing too which is awesome. I still love I Try.

Tuesday 3/07/2017:
I nearly fainted from excitement when I found out that Fleet Foxes had released their first new song this morning in six years and that a new album is coming out in June. They have been my favorite band of the 2000's.
Here is the new song and video via direct link.

Friday 3/03/2017:
I burned incense today which is something I haven't done in years. I missed that smell.

Wednesday 2/22/2017:
Whatever Happened to the Avant-garde? Fascinating program from BBC Radio 3 though I don't agree with the bit about technology at the end. I think the future of avant-garde will be the anti-tech.

Sunday 2/19/2017:
The peace of a Sunday morning is the sunshine and listening to the singing birds of spring even though it is still winter.

Saturday 2/18/2017:


Having finished Zoo Station it is time to start a new book. This time a gay love story set in Athens, Greece.

Friday 2/17/2017:

"We all have wings but some of us don't know why," INXS Never Tear Us Apart.

Oh my allergies are awful this week as the trees are beginning to pollinate waaaay too early this year.

Tuesday 2/14/2017:

I'm indulging my fascination with 1980s Berlin and I've started reading Zoo Station about that period.
It mentioned a song I had heard as a kid in the 80s and I completely had forgotten to time. I found it on YouTube and instantly smiled.

Monday 2/13/2017:

This Pablo Neruda poem gets me every time in that scene from Patch Adams.

While Dave Gahan has the time of his life performing in the new Depeche Mode video his band mates look like the two most bored guys on the planet.
I like the song though.

Saturday 2/11/2017: It might be old now, but this video from 1997 by the Dandy Warhols is still the funniest music video.

Friday 2/10/2017: Fashion labels are always co-opting what's on the street. Now at Fashion Week they have co-opted the the Black Bloc/Anarchist/Antifa look to sell clothes. Protest fashion has now gone mainstream. Just LOL.

I still don't really care much for that Black Beatles hit, mostly I just like the video because it was shot in Atlanta.

Thursday 2/9/2017: Thread by k.d. lang is as smooth as my coffee.

Wednesday 2/8/2017:

James Baldwin in Paris.
I read Giovanni's Room all in one day, the entire book. I could not put it down. What a mind fuckery dark book it was in parts about relationships, self-delusion and identity. It was a great book and James Baldwin impressed me again.

Music this morning.

Tuesday 2/7/2017: 

Giovanni's Room is the next book on my reading list. I cannot refuse James Baldwin right now.

Song for today is Me And The Devil, Gil Scott Heron. Heavy...

Friday 2/03/2017: I hate when you are looking for an obscure movie and you can't find it on any of your resources. I've been looking for Blank Generation and I can't find it anywhere.

Sunday 1/29/2017: The weather has gotten cold again and it feels like winter should which makes me happy. I've been watching German films from the 1980s this weekend.

Saturday 1/28/2017: Radiohead's Hail To The Thief is relevant again. Song for the day.

Saturday 1/21/17: Thunderstorms in the morning in January now that's bizarre. Climate change has been raging this month so far. Day after day of temperatures 20 or more degrees above normal. Temperatures over 70F (21C) in January is not welcome, I even had to turn on the air conditioning yesterday. Never in my life have I ever turned on the air conditioning in January.
A good song from A Tribe Called Quest for these dark times.
I thoroughly enjoyed watching Moonlight the other night and of course Atlanta worked its way into the movie.

Sunday 1/15/17: Damn I just saw Arrival. I had heard it was good. It was so predictable and I figured out the plot half way through. Ugh Hollywood.

Tuesday 1/10/17: Every so often I have to listen to Vienna Teng's Dreaming Through The Noise album. This album is perfect for cold evenings. I wish I could remember how I found this rather obscure album but I can't. It is so gorgeous sounding. Nothing Without You. That album reminds me of some of Tori Amos' work, Winter or the devastatingly sad Hey Jupiter.

Saturday 1/07/17: Argh ice storm!

Saturday 12/31/16:

Sometimes there are good surprises in life. A little surprise snow this morning to finish this year.

Friday 12/30/16: Listening to Lukas Graham's Mama Said and thinking how it addresses poverty and having pride and growing up without the material things, but with love. It's a good song.
I'm also taken by the James Baldwin poem Munich, Winter 1973.

Wednesday 12/28/16: Sitting here at home looking at photos of mine from the 1990s and thinking about how different the world was then and how in so many ways we've grown boring. I'm not even feeling nostalgic, but man pre-24/7/Facebook world was a lot more fun. Anyway, Experimental Jet Set, Trash and No Star from Sonic Youth was one of my favorite albums from the 90s.

Thursday 12/22/16:

Stayed up a little late tonight watching Sharky's Machine that was filmed here in Atlanta in 1981. It was actually better than I expected it to be and I enjoyed it. All that early 80s footage reminded me of the city I knew as a child.

Sunday 12/18/16: Writer David Sedaris will always make me laugh. Growing up in the country we didn't waste food either as we would throw the table scraps into the woods at the edge of the yard and something would eat them if it wasn't our own dogs.

Saturday 12/17/16:
I will take my quiet and cold weather sunrises any day over the sunrise in summer. This was from one morning this week, I think maybe Thursday before the next storm was set to come.
I lost a couple of days of writing this week due to research that took longer than expected but I did very much enjoy the Chinese lantern festival at Centennial Olympic Park on Monday night.

Sunday 12/11/16: 
This morning after sunrise the sky had the appearance of a snow sky. A storm was coming and I stepped outside to feel the damp cold. It was the kind of cold that with the help of a light breeze on a Sunday morning sneaks its way past your scarf and underneath your big wool coat to get inside you. The bones are cold and the cold is a quiet cold deep inside. I like this cold. With the blanket of overcast, sound travels farther than normal and my ears were gifted the sound of the distant train whistle.

Beautiful sounds.

Saturday 12/10/16: It was so refreshing this morning at sunrise to walk out into the heavy cold and hard frost as temperatures dropped into the mid 20s. You feel so alive when it is this cold. Hooray!

Wednesday 12/06/16: I watched The Handmaiden. The first movie this year that I have seen that I couldn't figure out the plot turns in the first ten minutes. It's a great movie and might end up being my favorite for the year. It's a wickedly good movie.

Sunday 12/04/16: Raining and cold this beautiful morning. It reminds me of one of my favorite Christmas songs, Carol Of The Bells. The raindrops are the piano notes.

Saturday 12/03/16: I stepped out into the morning cold for the sunrise. The remaining stars in the sky were fading in the west. This is to me what sunrise sounds like. It gets me every time I listen.

Thursday 12/01/16: This story made me laugh out loud. I loved the pics of the person dressed up as a gorilla. Thank you people for the laughs.

Wednesday 11/30/16: A couple of years ago I saw this Bob Dylan inspired video about quitting Facebook and thought it was spot on. It focuses on the artificial and unnatural social aspects of the site in a creative way. It is worthy of viewing. As a side note: this is the original Dylan video.

Tuesday 11/29/16: I woke up early this morning to enjoy this wonderful rain. I had to see, hear and smell the raindrops. This is the first significant rain we've had since early September. I don't think I have ever gone this long without seeing rain in my life and that's not an exaggeration. In honor of the happy rain, this song.

Sunday 11/27/16: Normally by the end of November I have seen several movies that I would have really liked. So far the only movie that I have thought was very good was Mountains May Depart.

Friday 11/25/16: "And I will never be set free as long as I'm a ghost you can't see." It will forever be one of my favorite lines from a song.

Saturday 11/19/16: Philip Glass you write such beautiful music. I'm off to the mountains again tomorrow to enjoy the cold. It has been a sunny, cold and windy day. It feels like winter and I love it. I'm about to listen to a radio version of Watership Down on BBC Radio 4.

Friday 11/18/16: A quiet night at home. I watched SenSommer, which is a Danish movie. Listening to Under The Milky Way by The Church and thinking about the 1990s, I always loved this song.