Jimmy In Saigon

Still from the film Jimmy In Saigon.

When the Vietnam War ended I was two years old and for most of my life there has been a continuous stream of Hollywood movies, documentaries, video games and books produced about that war. Though, it does seem that in recent years the United States media fascination, appetite and hangover from that war has waned as my parent's generation dies off. My generation, Generation X, was too young to be drafted into the war or remember much about it from first hand experience and many members of my generation were not even born, instead we experienced it vicariously through entertainment, school education and personal family histories.

The U.S. failure in Vietnam seemed to be the war that was always in the background somewhere at the edge of the dinner table or always on the screen through the eighties, nineties and 2000s haunting the American conscious. With that much saturation and consumption of a war I thought I had heard, read or seen every angle on Vietnam possible.

I was scrolling through documentaries one evening last week and decided to take a chance on an unfamiliar title. It was a quiet documentary reminiscent of the type that aired on the PBS Independent Lens series in the early 1990s. It was not flashy, punctuated with dramatic music at every turn of the plot or littered with quick jump cuts or drone shots that pollute modern documentaries with worn out style over substance. With my attention captured, I realized I had not heard every story out of Vietnam. I am not certain there is another unique story that has been told like the one laid out in the 2022 documentary, Jimmy in Saigon.

Filmmaker Peter McDowell returns to the late 1960s and early 70s to tell the story and delve into the mystery of his eldest brother, Jimmy, who he only knew in death and family silence.

Jimmy dropped out of college after his junior year, was drafted and survived his tour of duty in Vietnam. He made it back home, something sixty-thousand American soldiers did not. It was during his time in Vietnam that Jimmy changed and possibly accepted or discovered who he was. He returned to the United States, but instead of staying, a man who was lost returned to Saigon not as a soldier, but as a civilian. A man full of youthful idealism shed his suburban, upper middle class family in Champaign, Illinois to live immersed in South Vietnamese society.

But why?

He could have easily been a ghost at the edge of the dinner table or staring back at us from a war zone on a screen, but he is not. Through the process of storytelling we view Jimmy's early life through family home movies. We see his family snapshots too and ones he took during his life in Vietnam. He is very much alive in the film visually and through a voice actor reading his letters to friends and family. I got the impression that one day, Jimmy was going to write a sprawling novel based on his life and if not, then he was going to have some fun stories to tell.

 

Still from the film Jimmy In Saigon.

Though impossible to get the full picture of the person Jimmy was or may have become, the film fits together enough pieces to form a portrait of why this story and man is so unique and compelling. Through decades of passed time, a war, differing cultures, changing attitudes, some lingering prejudices and fragments of recollections by those who knew the young man in Saigon we understand what happened and who Jimmy was.

To answer the 'but why' it took opening old wounds of a delicate family history which reveals an even more delicate secret. Halfway through the film comes the big reveal and when it comes I give immense credit to the filmmaker for his honesty. His mother at one point says, “but to have all that come out now, um well, I don't know what I can do. I can't do anything. I do think, I'll probably die.”

This is a film not only about what we hide from others, but from ourselves.

Jimmy in Saigon is currently streaming for free on Tubi.