Showing posts with label Berlin. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Berlin. Show all posts

Thursday, May 2, 2024

Movies, Thoughts and Walks in May

 

A photo from a walk near home this past Monday. The landscapes are getting the late spring green as summer settles into place. Though I enjoy gardening and being out in nature in the warmer months, summer's heat and humidity is not as much fun as when I was a child.

I reread Tom Wolfe's Radical Chic from 1970 this week. It is relevant again in modern life among the poseurs of society.

Recent movies I watched:

The old mansion in Silent Night, Bloody Night
 

Silent Night, Bloody Night - I probably saw this on television in the seventies when old movies regularly played on the Atlanta independent stations. The movie is from 1972 and it captures how I remember the seventies as dark, rural and quiet. The 70s were not all about disco despite what people may think. I enjoyed the movie for what it was.


Westler -This is a 1985 West German gay movie about two lovers divided by the Berlin Wall. I'm obsessed with the GDR and Berlin so this movie appealed to me for it's footage shot on both sides of the wall. The plot and acting weren't the best, but it had enough appeal for me. The East German film, Coming Out, released in 1989 is a more complete and interesting film.

 

Wednesday, April 3, 2024

April Movies and Music

 

As an Erik Satie fan I was thrilled to learn about this album last week on BBC Radio 3. I have had it on repeat ever since. My introduction to Satie was through film. I heard his music the first time as a small boy when I saw the movie Being There with Peter Sellers and Shirley MacLaine. It would not be until I was an adult that I find out who composed the music that I could not forget.

Movies & documentaries that I have watched in the last month:

Drifter (set in Berlin and loved it)


Downtown 81 (that period of New York fascinates me. Dreamy and gritty.)


The Killing Of A Sacred Deer (there isn't a Yorgos Lanthimos film that I haven't liked)


Tell Them Anything You Want: A Portrait of Maurice Sendak (loved Where The Wild Things Are as a child and Sendak does not disappoint as a documentary subject.)


The Man Who Skied Down Everest (stunning visuals in this documentary. I'll never be convinced that the seventies weren't the best decade of film.)


Sunday, December 3, 2017

Reading And Such



Over the last month I have picked up my reading pace again. I finished three books.

The last one completed was the one I enjoyed the most and that was Stasiland by Anna Funder. It appealed to me because of my interests in the former East Germany and the Berlin Wall. The book is more about the East German secret police known as the Stasi than it is about the Berlin Wall but you cannot write about East Germany without the wall being a central figure so there was plenty of interesting details that I learned from this book about the wall that I didn't know before.

One of the other books that I read was No One Left To Lie To: The Triangulations of William Jefferson Clinton by Christopher Hitchens. My exposure to Hitchens had been his essays and watching appearances of his before he died and he and I share the same views on religion. This was the first book of his that I had read and while it was interesting and I mostly agree with him about Bill Clinton it wasn't all that great of a book. I don't believe in criticizing a person for their sexual desires and so much of this book focuses on just that. Hitchens does write about other criticisms he has of Clinton but there was too much time spent on his alleged affairs because I don't really care about that. I will have to give Hitchens another chance by reading some of his other books.

Lastly, the other book was Amusing Ourselves To Death: Public Discourse In The Age Of Show Business by Neil Postman. This book which is a critique of the television industry and what it does to society originally came out in 1985 and it is even more relevant today in the age of television and the internet. The basic idea is that television is bad for you and makes you dumber by watching it and that I agree with. I gave up all television years ago because I just cannot stand the shows and the ways news is presented today. My take on television news is that they spend more time giving opinions on the news than actual reportage of the news thus I read all my news. In the age of fake news and living in real life Idiocracy this book is a must read for its sanity. There may be all kinds of technological innovation in our lives but damn I feel like we are getting dumber and meaner as a society day by day.

Next up for me on the reading list is a Japanese book called Almost Transparent Blue. I enjoy Japanese literature and film so I am looking forward to starting this book this week.

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I've been exploring the discography of the band Chumbawamba. They were mostly known for Tubthumping but their music was highly political. They were actually a bunch of anarchists so that's interesting and they made other good music than just their hit song. The two albums I have liked the most are Anarchy and Never Mind The Ballots...Here's The Rest Of Your Life. If you need some inspiration during these dark political times I suggest giving their music a try.

Monday, April 10, 2017

Dispatch: Dinners, Berlin, Cats, Bunnies And The Hiding Stranger

Atlanta Monday evening. Taken from a webcam.

The evening was unfolding and I was relaxing by listening to shortwave radio. I had found a station out of the U.K. and they were playing The Devil Inside by INXS. Their music sounded better today than it did back when it was new in the late 80s. I liked the band then but compared to today's rock it holds up well. That song is a playful jaunt and devious too, I like it.

My quiet and contemplative mood that has taken hold in me since last fall is still lingering in me. I went to a couple of dinners in the past week and noticed I wasn't all that engaged in the conversation. I was spending too much time listening and not enough time taking an active role but I guess it doesn't much bother me. This was the most socially active I have been since October last year.

One dinner was a friend's birthday dinner and another was a going away dinner for yet another friend that is moving to New York. I think I know more people in New York now than I do in Atlanta.


I saw this Berlin poster a couple of weeks ago on a blog that I read from time to time and I fell in love with it. I would love to have a large wall poster version of this. My fascination with Berlin remains strong.



I have watched a couple of interesting movies: If Cats Disappeared From The World and How To Draw A Bunny. The movie with cats in the title was a sentimental Japanese movie that I often enjoy. It was a sad emotional story about a young man coming to terms with his mother's death and his own impending death. I didn't cry but I was close to tears near the end.

How To Draw A Bunny is a documentary about the artist Ray Johnson. I must admit I was only slightly aware of him and his oddly composed signature bunnies. His collages were interesting though  and very intricate like a complex puzzle. The documentary explores his life from stories about his friends and how he was on the New York art scene and his curious personality until his death in 1995. His death received speculation that it was maybe his final piece of performance art or just an ordinary suicide by an elderly man. I lean towards thinking his death being an intentional mystery in which he wanted it to be another piece of art.

There is one mystery that I am trying to understand in my life and that involves some odd guy that I have caught twice hiding outside my fence watching me. The first time I pretended not notice him hiding and I went inside. I then watched out the window as he got up from his hiding spot at the fence and then quickly walked down the sidewalk once he thought I didn't see him. The second time I caught him hiding at the fence watching me I decided to make it obvious that I saw him and stood outside my door and stared at him. Finally he realized that I was watching him watching me and he ran away down the street.  It worries me some because I don't know what this is about. I don't think he is going to attack me but is he trying to watch my place and break in? If I see him again I might confront him or maybe not. I am sort of enjoying this cat and mouse game with this strange guy that sometimes hides at my fence. I don't know enough about the situation yet to involve the police.

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Zoo Station, An East West Mess

 

Zoo Station is a well-known train station in Berlin. It was known as a place to find prostitutes and heroin in the 1970s and 80s and was glamorized in books and film such as Christiane F. So when you title a book Zoo Station you might expect that this train station would figure prominently in the book but in the case of Zoo Station: Adventures in East And West Berlin by Ian Walker you find that this train station is mentioned one time in brief passing. When this book was published in 1987 I can only surmise that the title was chosen to cash in on the notoriety of the name Zoo Station.

What follows in the book written by a journalist in Berlin is an account of his time in the city in 1984. The stories aren't so much adventures but more tales of smuggling a poetry book into East Berlin (so devious and wild this author was), rants against the United States, character sketches of people he encounters, and anecdotes about life in both West and East Berlin.

There are many problems with this book and I am not certain if it is entirely nonfiction.

As the book slowly moves along I began to question whether this was nonfiction or fiction or a blending of the two. I suspect that there's more fiction here than truth in this tangled mess. I also began to question the sanity of the author. By the time I reached the middle of the book I felt as though I was reading the ramblings of someone suffering a mental illness. Walker did indeed have problems which he likes to remind you several times and only three years after this book was published he committed suicide in 1990. He jumped from the window of a building in London while shouting that Jesus was coming. A tragic end for sure but in reading this book you could see that he needed help.

About halfway through the book you begin realize that this isn't much a book but more the rambling journal of a mentally ill man. Some of the stories have a certain lack of authenticity about them. I suspect some of the stories are fictitious and either didn't happen as described or never happened at all.

The author repeatedly mentions that he is in financial trouble and keeps referring to unpaid debts back home in London. He mentions them so often you begin to think that he has skipped out and left the country to avoid paying these debts which must have been rather large.

The way he wrote about his love for his much younger girlfriend  Laura was creepy, obsessive and paranoid. He would go on and on about how beautiful she was and how when they would go anywhere together all the men would be staring at her beauty. He would imagine all these men wanting to sleep with her like he did and then he'd go on some insecure and paranoid rant about it. He didn't even like taking her out in public because he was so jealous and paranoid. This was a man in his early 30s but the way he would write about her made it seem like he was a love struck teenager. It was creepy.

Throughout the book Walker is always describing himself as a journalist and he likes to use this title to impress the people he meets in the book. But near the end of the book you find out that isn't even in Berlin on assignment and is there on unpaid leave from the Observer. He claims the unpaid leave was so he could write a book but, cough..cough..I call bullshit. He showed up at a military public relations tour so late, disheveled, hungover and acted so unprofessional that a member of the British military decided to check out his credentials with the Observer because he was suspicious of him. This is when we find out about the unpaid leave and that the Observer didn't even know what he was doing in Berlin and stated that he wasn't on any assignment for them.

To further make me suspect the author's credibility I never believed the authenticity of the character he calls Wolfgang without a last name. He seemed desperate to paint this Wolfgang character as a spy for the Stasi. I wonder if Wolfgang ever existed or was the creation of his imagination. He might of met a person once that people joked was a spy and so he expounded on the idea and developed a character but I really suspect this wasn't a true story. It was if he thought if he could create a story about knowing a Cold War spy he could make the book and himself more interesting. Some of the characters have last names but this Wolfgang's last name was never given which leads me to believe he was fiction. As often as he writes about this Wolfgang and as much as he wants this character to be important you would have thought he could have provided a last name for him. His conversations with this character were often long and detailed like a novel. Knowing that the author was only jotting down notes and not using a recorder I don't believe his memory was good enough to recall such great detail as body language and entire conversations by memory.

Even more curious about Walker's memory he somehow manages to have the exact same conversation with different people in different situations about the arms race and the 'war economy' between the east and west in the Cold War. He isn't the one both times saying these things. He puts the words into the mouths of the supposedly real characters. It happens early in the book at an East Berlin party and then magically near the very end of the book different characters at the British Officer's Club say the near exact same thing. It isn't even plausible that this would happen that these very different people would say the same words in two very different settings.

Then there's the issue of the timeline for this book.

The timeline is very blurry and the author never fully explains just how long he was in Berlin. I suspect he wasn't there for a long time. It seems that he once visited Berlin in 1979, came back to do an assignment in East Berlin with his girlfriend for the Observer and then came back to West Berlin in 1984. Most of the book seems to occur in 1984 which was probably the only time he lived there and that may have only been just a few months. We know at the end of the book he leaves West Berlin but we don't know when that takes place but it seems to be all in the same year. So it is difficult to understand just how well the author even knew Berlin.

At some point after Berlin he runs off to Nicaragua to meet up with a former roommate who was there saving the world. Was the author there just to avoid those debts? Was he there because his young girlfriend that he was obsessed with had left him?

The only thing certain about his stay in Nicaragua was that it was brief too because the book is published in 1987. His time in Nicaragua is also when he writes this book which he mentions was all done from his notes.

Credibility aside the book is tediously boring by the second half. Two unnecessary chapters are more filler in which Walker spends time touring the military installations of the U.S. and British armed forces stationed in West Berlin. Mostly these chapters are recitations of useless facts about the military which no one would find interesting and my eyes glossed over. He offered no context or insight to these numbers and it seemed like these chapters which weren't for the newspaper were just half-assed attempts at research.

Then the final blow of mediocrity is the chapter that Walker doesn't even write himself called Here's Johnny. The chapter is written by one of the friends of Walker that he mentions throughout the book. This Johnny is in no way interesting and is no one important and he never says anything important. Even he begins the chapter by saying, "I am trying to imagine what a western audience would see as the highlights of my life." This Johnny has no last name just like the Wolfgang character and I seriously think he was pure fiction too.

The positives about the book are the descriptions of the city, the people, the contrasts between East and West Berlin, his stories about border crossing procedures, his observations about immigrants in West Berlin and his descriptions of the people and places in the neighborhood of Kreuzberg.

At one point he is riding a bike along the wall in West Berlin and comes to an abandoned Catholic hospital adjacent to the wall. The hospital since becoming vacant had become home to squatters from various nations. The people being squatters were living in precarious conditions and some even had children. Their lives and stories would have made for interesting reading and I kept thinking there's a story worth telling but instead he only mentions it in passing and decides to go climb an observation tower yet again and smoke. What kind of journalist or writer passes up opportunities like this?

Eventually these same descriptions of the train system, meeting the same characters and hanging out in Metropol and Djungel wears thin. For a book to have the word 'adventures' in the title I want some fantastic stories to back up that claim. There never was any adventure. This guy was basically an average guy doing much of nothing in a uniquely interesting city during a period that was once in a lifetime but he was only a hanger on.There's not much of a story here and there is no greater understanding of people, politics or anything really. The book could have been about his own personal journey and struggles or it could have been about life in Berlin but it wasn't a success at either.

Sunday, January 29, 2017

Coming Out In East Berlin

 

Every so often I am fortunate enough to come across some obscure film that turns out to be a gem. I'm always on the lookout to find some film that few know about and often times these are foreign films or films from decades ago. I was lucky enough to find a film that was both foreign and from the past, Coming Out. The film is East German and was released in 1989.

I will admit that I have this fascination with Berlin in the 1980s and especially East Berlin. A city divided by an armed wall that separated two worlds so vastly different in most every way compels my mind to want to know more. The stark contrasts between the vibrant west versus the drab east of the GDR (German Democratic Republic) were images that I saw quite often on American television news growing up. Visually the east appeared gray and cold and those are two attributes that I find appealing. Though I know life was more difficult in the east at least from a purely aesthetic perspective I found it attractive and have romanticized the isolation.

Scenes of gay life in East Berlin.

Coming Out gives a rare look over the other side of the Berlin Wall into a not very well documented part of what life must have been like being gay in East Berlin. The film shows us the gay bars and the colorful and lively environment inside that was a shelter against the outward grayness of the city. There were the drag shows and bar staff in drag which reminded me greatly of where I live in Atlanta where drag or cabaret as some would call it, is very popular. You see doormen standing behind a sliding window in a door inspecting customers before allowing them inside to make sure they weren't there to cause trouble. American gay life wasn't so different as this tactic was often used to stop or delay police from raiding and arresting patrons. In the film there is the park cruising that would go on and that too was common in the United States during that time. So there were similarities between gay life in East Berlin and in the United States in how underground the scene was back then. There might not have been Gay Pride parades but you find out that gay life in East Berlin in the 1980s wasn't all that different from gay life in America and that is surprising.


The plot of the movie is that of a twenty-something high school teacher named Philipp that begins a relationship with a fellow teacher (Tanja) that had had a crush on him for years. Soon after they begin dating he meets a friend of his girlfriend that turns out to be his gay lover from his adolescence. This chance encounter reawakens his own gay feelings and he is soon out in the East Berlin gay bars exploring his homosexual desires. This is where he meets Matthias and they quickly fall in love. Philipp begins to lead an unhappy double life deciding between breaking it off with his girlfriend or to follow his true love with Matthias.

Matthias


Matthias is somewhat younger at nineteen and soon to be twenty he says and for him Philipp is his first love and he's like a puppy with big eyes following Philipp around. Matthias falls head over heels in love with Philipp and eagerly wants to start a serious relationship with him. Matthias is an innocent character and though he's spent some time in the gay nightlife of East Berlin he isn't jaded like someone with more experience would be. He's very much a refreshing character and you are cheering for him not to have his heart broken. Matthias is the sweet, charming and curious character that I adore.

Philipp

Philipp just coming to terms with his sexuality is the character that is coming out as the title implies. Though he had had adolescent love with another boy he is attempting in his adult life to suppress his true identity and live as a heterosexual man. His family is pressuring him in many ways from family household obligations even though he no lives at home to settling down with a woman. Once he does move in with his girlfriend the pressure weighs more heavily on him that he isn't happy and that he is living a lie.

Through the film we watch as Philipp struggles with his identity in his career and in his personal life. The writing captures well what it is like to first enter the gay scene and how one must find their way into being embraced by your community. It also depicts well how the community can be very accepting and at the same time very shallow and harsh. One of the better scenes in the movie is when Philipp is confronted by an older gentlemen that helps guide him onto the path of self acceptance and beginning to live life in a more healthy way. By the end of the movie, which takes a few unexpected turns to get there, you see Philipp making progress to finding his own path to personal freedom.

One piece of trivia about this film is that on the night the movie premiered in the theatre it was the same night that began the fall of the Berlin Wall on November 9th, 1989. GDR officials announced as the film was playing that the gates to the west were open and residents of the east could freely travel. The announcement on the news that night was cause for a huge celebration and so people rushed to the wall and overwhelmed the guards and police on duty. The crowds were so large that finally officials gave up on checking the documents of everyone that wanted to cross and this lead to the fall of the wall. So on the same night that a film about a gay man finding his own personal freedom premiered it was also the same night an entire country found its freedom.